Hello…..
Yes, I know it has been a long time again since I have posted! Sometimes life can be so challenging. I am just going to put this out here and then we are all going to move on. As you all know at the end of the school year/beginning of summer my youngest son Ben was diagnosis with Autism Spectrum Disorder Level 1. Yes, he is high functioning. Which is a blessing and a curse all in one. People do not see him as a kiddo with ASD because sometimes he can hold it together and seem like a quirky fun boy. Other days we can’t leave the house because it is raining. Not one day is easy. Not one day is the same. Each kiddo with ASD are all different. I know we are blessed . Other kids are struggling with much worst things then Ben. I just want everyone to understand that NO matter what you are struggling with it is real and important. What you and your family feel matters.
I personally have know that Ben was different for years BUT to get a 17 page report to tell you your son is different and has ASD really takes the wind out of your sails. As I took some time to sit and process this and cry. I started slipping into depression. Not know what to do for Ben to help him be the best Ben he can be. Then we got word from our insurance company that our percent of the bill for Ben’s weekly ASD treatments would be $1000. As the tears rolled down my face knowing we can’t afford treatment for him. I feel like I we are failing him. How could they think that anyone could afford that. So, I tried to research what we could do at home to help him…..but depression is hitting me hard. I kept thinking I can’t do this. I can’t handle this. Yet, I know that I have to…..so I am digging deep into my soul and praying. I know God is watching over us and will help us weather this storm. Please keep us in your prayers. Each day we are growing and leaning things to help him deal better.
I have not be able to make it to my studio much but as I am climbing out of this depression….I am starting to do some projects 🙂 I have been working on some pendants and some other fun stuff! Coming soon, I promise!
Thanks for stopping in!
Hugs,
Sis, please know you are not alone and God will not give you more than you can handle. He chose you and Joe to take care of Ben because He knows you will love and care for him and always do what is best for him. My great-niece Morgan has autism–she is in school and has speech therapy and not potty trained yet even though she’s 8. She is a happy child and a huge blessing to our family. I will keep you all in my prayers. I hope to see more of your beautiful projects and on Etsy too… it has been awhile since I bought something. The last thing was an adorable charm made from clay 🙂 love you bunches sweet friend.
I’ve missed your beautiful projects, dear friend. Ben is not a alone and his not the last nor the first. He definitely is a special kid and I have known that since both the boys were young tots. He will test your patience, but I know that he will also surprise you in so many great ways. It IS a learning process, but I bet that the growing days will be cherished as you develop as a family. xo
Who the heck has that kind of money. I’m all mad at that.
However, I have absolute faith in YOU. You will find a way to get Ben what he needs. Not the million dollar treatment, but something you can do with him. I know it. I know you already are. If any amount of creativity, love and dedication can help a child (and it CAN) he will be fine because he has you.
I love you. You can handle this. When you think you can’t remember who you are. You are a child of God. You are the mother of two very special little boys. You are incredibly powerful. You can do this. You will do this. Ben will grow up knowing that no matter how different he is he was always, ALWAYS loved and valued. And that is what every child really needs.
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I feel so sorry for you and your family. Sending hugs. I’ll e-mail you.
hugs,
Beth
That last picture and quote stole my heart. Love you guys and I’m praying for ya’ll. If you need to vent, cry, or scream, call me…I’m here. You need to search for an autism support group in your area that has other parents that have been where you are right now….they will have lots of insight for you and can be helpful to point you in the right direction as far as insurance and help with treatment. Your boys are awesome and I’ve always adored your family. Let go and let God….you can do this with His strength.